“Afraid,” the latest release from Eden Hill, is the story of a spiritual journey told in hip-hop.
It is all about the trip, not the destination, and it is Christian with all the elements people want in hip-hop and rap but with no preachiness and no pretense that the decision to believe takes away all doubt and pain.
What it does have is all the pleasure of listening to an accomplished artist work out his message in beat and melody.
“Basically, ‘Afraid’ is a journey from believing falsehoods about God to knowing the truth,” said Eden, “but not walking in it, to, finally, accepting the truth and then figuring out how to walk in it.”
The flow of his rap varies with the stages of the journey, told to beats delivered by piano and drums. Main points are accented sharply by strings.
“It was a very, very fun beat to make,” he said. “It started out with the piano, for sure. The piano is more like a classical tone, and it’s kind of like a build-up throughout the whole progression.”
Turmoil and doubt kick it off:
Look I don't even know where to begin
Probably I should start looking within
And find the broken bits of me that hide discretely underneath my skin
The intensity, volume and speed of the piano and Eden’s rap build until the music suddenly stops. Into the silence, Eden says:
I feel
The drum drops on
Psychotic
And it’s off to the races.
Familiar trap and Eden’s trap deal with the same life reality. The difference is in reaction and perspective.
On the one hand is anger, bravado, defiance or violence, from the natural human perspective. On the other hand is Eden’s spiritual perspective, which trends toward hope.
Hardship and fear are present in both.
“It’s a really raw, vulnerable song that deals with a spiritual awakening and seeking healing and understanding through faith in God.”
He doesn’t shy away from the “mental turmoil” that comes through dealing with regret and shame.
The song deals with common misconceptions, like God is just there to give us what we want.”
Maybe I could get a bit of this
Maybe I could get a bit of that
Come on God I’m doing what you're asking
The music helps tell the story.
“The orchestral buildup engages the listener in the story, where all these thoughts are coming up, all these doubts and misconceptions are coming up. The music represents the train of thought behind the lyrics. Then the drums hit at the empowering moments.”
And I got it going for me lyrically I’m blessed
I’ve been picked out of the sin I had he called me elect
And you can see the transformation grace is taking effect
Eden’s Christian journey began in church before faith fell away from middle school through high school and college and a 10-year career in secular rap. That period involved witchcraft, communion with dark spirits, New Age spiritualism, “all that dark energy stuff.”
Then one night, “Jesus met me in an acid trip.” The meeting included a terrifying vision of his physical and spiritual death, and he came out of the dream with the thought, “What if Jesus really is the way, the truth and the life?”
He stopped making music after 2020 when, he says, God withdrew his gift for music “until I promised that I would make my music to glorify Him and to be honest.”
This year, he started his career all over. He has released an eight-track album, Patience, and two singles, “Trust” and now “Afraid.”
He calls himself “a pivotal figure in Christian rap,” by which he means being honest about the Christian journey.
Most Christian rappers, he said, don’t talk about struggling with faith because “they want to promote Christianity as your life gets better instantly when that’s not really the case.”
“Christianity is a hard walk. While we’re on this planet, we’re gonna struggle.”
“Being a pivotal figure in the Christian hip-hop space, I want to show people that, ‘Hey, this is it. This is a battlefield, but we have armor and we have a protector. We have angel armies on our side.’ And not only that, but there is a wonderful eternity ahead of us.”
“Afraid” introduces the 10 tracks on his next album, Fear No Evil. The album drops on October 4.
It will be “kind of like a cinematic journey about going from spiritual bondage to peace and spiritual freedom.”
Wanting or seeking a Christian message is not necessary to appreciate his music. His lyrics are not pablum. They deal with struggle, doubt and hardship. Believe in Christianity or not, the lyrics serve up food for thought and the music creates a lively, energetic space for thinking.
“The truth is, we live in a broken world. We live in a world burdened by poverty, by wars, division in politics, division in households, littered with hardships left and right, and it attacks us personally. Christian or not, we carry the burden of this world. I just want people to know that there’s hope.”
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I've sometimes felt as though every piece of music is an exploration of our perception of time. What sparked the idea of focusing on time as the main focus for your new work?
The focus on time in this work emerged quite unconsciously.
What actually happened is that the title came last, after I received an email from John (Benedict ndr) regarding the production timeline. In the middle of that email, those two Latin words appeared, and for me, as an Italian reading them in an English context, they had an almost striking, illuminating effect.
At that point, I went back to the pieces I had written, listening again to how they had been developed and recorded, and also considering the broader time span over which the entire EP had been composed. It became clear to me that Tempo Fugit was the most fitting title to represent the work.
I've been listening to Tangerine Dream's Zeit a lot recently but that album is based on a very specific concept of time, as pioneered in the West bei Parmenides, that time does not, actually, move. What are your own reflections on time?
Time is perhaps the most objective construct that exists in nature, and yet the most paradoxical aspect of it is that it is entirely perceived in a subjective way.
At times, time seems not to pass at all; at other times, it rushes forward, or even feels as if it stops. But this sense of flow, its rhythm, its pace, is not determined by time itself, it is determined by us.
This is precisely why I see it as such a fundamentally objective dimension. It is inescapable, it is constant, and yet our perception transforms something absolutely objective into something deeply subjective.
Time is not just the medium through which music flows, it can also be a musical tool in its own right. How did you work with it for Tempo Fugit?
For this EP, I worked with time in two main ways.
On one hand, there are pieces built around a very clear and explicit temporal reference, a metronome. On the other, there are works that were recorded almost entirely without any fixed time reference. This applies both to the piano pieces and to the electronic ones.
In some tracks, the presence of a grid allows for a very precise perception of construction, almost as if the composition were being built brick by brick. In others, there is a deliberate need to remove any external reference and instead follow what I would describe as an inner sense of time.
These two approaches reflect the way I usually compose, and they are both clearly present and articulated throughout this EP.
Many contemporary composers have tried – or are still trying to make – time transparent by opting for extreme lengths. Your music, however, is quite to the point, on your earlier van Gogh EP even radically so. What is satisfying about concision for you?
I don’t usually approach composition by asking myself how long a piece should be.
When I work on immersive projects, of course, there are specific durations dictated by the storyboard. In those cases, the shorter the piece, the greater the risk of it sounding like a jingle. It becomes more difficult to preserve an emotional depth rather than just leaving behind a catchy motif.
At the same time, I find it very interesting to impose, in a way, constraints of brevity. I have written pieces that last twenty minutes or more, though they are often less suited to streaming platforms, and in some cases they have not even been officially released, as they belong to installations or more experimental contexts.
On the other hand, I also created a collection of one hundred one-minute pieces as part of a creative exercise called “100 days.” The idea was to repeat a creative act every day for one hundred consecutive days. My approach was to sit at the piano, even before having my coffee, and write exactly one minute of music.
Over time, this became a fascinating process. In the beginning, I relied on a timer, constantly checking the clock. But toward the end, I developed an internal sense of that one-minute span. Despite differences in tonality, meter, and tempo, I could almost instinctively feel when to begin and when to end each piece.
That experience taught me that duration is not something I impose from the outside, but something that can be internalized and shaped from within.
I understood that the process on Tempo Fugi was very different from piece to piece, with some finished quickly while others taking a lot of time. What is it about some works, do you feel, that makes them harder to nail down – how would you describe the sensation that something is “done”?
In this case, it was not really about how long it took to finish each piece. The tracks were written at different times, sometimes even years apart.
What happened later, when I listened back to them, was that I felt the need to create a stronger sense of cohesion across the EP. By “cohesion,” I mean introducing elements that could give more consistency to the role each track plays within the overall narrative.
So I revisited older demos that had been sitting in my archive for quite some time, pieces I still considered valid, and approached them almost as a form of rearrangement within the context of the EP. It was not about struggling to complete a piece, but rather about shaping it so that it could fully belong to this specific body of work.
For me, a piece is finished when I feel a strong coherence in the message I want to convey, when every sound has found its place, and when the musical discourse flows naturally and feels complete. It is not something I can define in purely rational terms. It is, above all, a sensation.
Since the process for Tempo Fugit was quite extensive, were there possibly overlaps between tracks composed for this project and the Van Gogh show? If so, how similar do pieces composed at the same time but for different projects tend to be?
There was no overlap. The music for the Van Gogh project we are referring to was written before the pandemic, whereas the material for Tempo Fugit dates back, at most, to about two or three years ago.
If we talk about similarities between pieces, I would distinguish between two different aspects.
From a purely musical perspective, meaning harmony and melody, it is actually more likely for similarities to emerge over time rather than within the same period. When you develop a certain awareness in your musical language, it naturally creates a kind of continuity, almost like a diary of melodic and harmonic ideas that evolves over the years.
On the other hand, pieces written within the same timeframe may resemble each other more from a sound design perspective. For example, if you are exploring a particular instrument, a specific synthesizer, a new effect, or even a certain way of miking the piano, these elements can shape the sonic identity of multiple pieces. Even choices like register or tonality can be influenced by those explorations.
So, if there is a form of resemblance within the same period, it is more likely to emerge from the sound and the tools being used, rather than from the underlying musical writing itself.
The release opens with a piece called “Repetition,” which called to mind a sentence by Ryoko Sekiguchi: “Time doesn’t pass, it returns.” How do you see that yourself – and how do you use repetition and variation in your work?
I see repetition as a beautiful form of communication, where the reiteration of an idea actually allows that idea to emerge more clearly.
The presence of a pattern becomes almost a kind of subtle game with rationality, with perception, with the listener’s intelligence. It invites a process of recognition, almost like solving a riddle.
This is what I find particularly compelling about minimalism. An idea is explored, listened to, gradually exhausted, then transformed, and the cycle begins again.
Since one part of the project seems to have been to use music to capture specific moments in time – how do you see the relationship between the moment and the music created in it? Quite often, sad music gets written in happy times of an artist's life and vice versa, so it seems like a complex relationship.
I agree that it is a complex relationship, and I would even extend it beyond the idea of writing sad music in happy times, or happy music in sad ones, as a way of balancing or compensating.
For me, it also involves the relationship with instruments. My work moves between acoustic instruments, like the piano, and more electronic forms of production, and I often experience this dialogue between emotional states and sound through them.
For instance, I might be drawn to more experimental electronic instruments during a more rational phase, while in a more instinctive or emotional moment I might turn to something structurally more defined, like the piano. In this sense, the contrast or interplay between different emotional states becomes symbiotic with the choice of instruments.
So yes, I would definitely describe this relationship as complex, but also deeply fascinating.