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In an emotional essay for The Hollywood Reporter, actor, singer and activist Billy Porter revealed that since 2007, he has been living with HIV.
The Pose star revealed that in 2007, he went to a clinic to have a "pimple" on his butt checked out. The doctor asked if he wanted to have an HIV test while he was there, and Porter said yes. "So I went in, got the pimple drained and got tested, and then the doctor came back and looked at me," he shared. "I was like, 'What?' He sat down, and I was like, 'No. Nooo.' And he said, 'Your test came back positive.'"
Porter revealed that for much of the last 14 years, most people close to him knew about his status, save for his mother. He kept his status hidden from everyone else, until having to quarantine in Long Island for the last year thanks to the global pandemic and his pre-existing condition. Then, he said that he was forced to confront his decision to keep his HIV status a secret from his mother -- and from the world.
"I’d never been given the luxury to even think about self-care or balance on any level before. It’s like I had to just keep going. COVID created a safe space for me to stop and reflect and deal with the trauma in my life," he said. "In the last year, I started real trauma therapy to begin the process of healing. I started peeling back all these layers: having been sent to a psychologist at age 5 because I came out of the womb a big old queen; being sexually abused by my stepfather from the time I was 7 to the time I was 12; coming out at 16 in the middle of the AIDS crisis. There has never been a moment that I’ve not been in trauma."
Porter explained how working on projects such as Kinky Boots and Pose helped him process his trauma surrounding his childhood abuse, and his shame regarding HIV. Eventually, after getting married to his husband Adam Smith in 2017, Porter came to the realization that he needed to be able to move past his shame in order to lead a fulfilling life. "I survived so that I could tell the story. That’s what I’m here for," he said. "Now I’m trying to have a family; now it’s not just me. It’s time to grow up and move on because shame is destructive -- and if not dealt with, it can destroy everything in its path.
One of the first steps in confronting his shame came with revealing his positive status to his mother. Porter said that he kept his HIV status from her largely because he felt he had already burdened her by simply being a queer man. "My mother had been through so much already, so much persecution by her religious community because of my queerness, that I just didn’t want her to have to live through their 'I told you so’s,'" he explained. "I didn’t want to put her through that. I was embarrassed. I was ashamed. I was the statistic that everybody said I would be. So I’d made a pact with myself that I would let her die before I told her."
The actor made a plan to visit his mother and tell her in person, but on the last day of shooting Pose season 3, Porter said that he couldn't hide it anymore, called his mother and told her that he was HIV positive. "She said, 'You’ve been carrying this around for 14 years? Don’t ever do this again. I’m your mother, I love you no matter what. And I know I didn’t understand how to do that early on, but it’s been decades now,'" he revealed. "And it’s all true. It’s my own shame."
Today, Porter says his HIV is "completely undetectable," meaning that his viral load has been reduced to small enough amounts that it can no longer be detected by blood tests, and it can no longer be transmitted through sex. "The truth is the healing. And I hope this frees me. I hope this frees me so that I can experience real, unadulterated joy, so that I can experience peace, so that I can experience intimacy, so that I can have sex without shame," he said. "This is for me. I’m doing this for me. I have too much s--- to do, and I don’t have any fear about it anymore. I told my mother -- that was the hurdle for me. I don’t care what anyone has to say. You’re either with me or simply move out of the way."
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David Lee Roth made an unexpected appearance at the Stagecoach Festival on Saturday evening, stepping onto the stage with Teddy Swims to perform “Jump,” the iconic 1984 hit by Van Halen.
During his Stagecoach set, Swims welcomed Roth after running through his recent single “Mr. Know It All” along with “Some Things I’ll Never Know,” both taken from his debut studio album I’ve Tried Everything But Therapy (Part 1), which arrived in September 2023.
This moment marked the third straight festival where the two have shared the stage. Swims previously invited Roth out during recent sets at the Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival, where he introduced him as “David Lee Roth from the best band of all time, Van Halen,” before they kicked into “Jump” together.
The latest performance unfolded during a chaotic night at Stagecoach, as strong winds earlier in the evening led to a temporary evacuation of the grounds and forced several changes to the schedule, including removing artists such as Journey and Riley Green from the lineup.
The evacuation came after powerful gusts swept through the Empire Polo Club in Indio, California, the site of the festival. An “emergency evacuation” notice appeared on screens across the venue, urging attendees to “move quickly and calmly to the nearest exit,” while alerts sent through the festival’s official app instructed people to clear the area.
The interruption impacted several stages, with the Mane Stage sitting between sets when the evacuation alert was issued. Wind conditions had been intensifying throughout the day, with stronger gusts arriving in the evening as part of a regional wind advisory.
Even with the disruption, Swims’ set ultimately continued, and Roth’s surprise appearance stood out as one of the biggest highlights of the night as fans returned once the festival resumed.
Stagecoach, one of the largest country music festivals in the United States, takes place every year at the same location as the Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival and regularly draws tens of thousands of fans.
